PainShipping Chapbook

OUT n About

PAINSHIP & has played a larger part throughout my whole adult life.

It started out in my early teenage stage.
I still remember the deep intense and burdened feelings that entered my life when I became a teenager.

At the time, I was unable to express my feelings verbally and the only way I knew how to communicate with them was through my writing.

Writing has been part of my whole life, on and off, ever since.

And if and when I did not write, I photographed or painted.

I got my first camera from my Dad when I was ten years old, and photography has played a major role in my life.

Both my family & friends grew accustomed to me photographing them time & again.

Entering an art class when I got lost in the woods just enrolling my university studies did me good & soothed my sacred body, tender soul, beautiful being & doing & lastly delicate senses.

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Furthermore, trying to start a family with poor results, I then decided to do a photo exhibition and invite all my friends, family members and dear colleagues from work. It turned out to be a huge success when it came to my well-bering. Surprisingly enough, this is also when I got pregnant with my daughter, turning eight years old in 2025.

I am back into writing and I love it.
It gives me peace, solace. I understand, to this day, that I have a deep need to write.

Writing is in my core & bones. But I do understand, by now, having my needs met, soothing my senses & so on is crucial a prerequisite for pulling off a mesmerising writing journey.

My Odes

Ode to all my human interactions & human experiences I have had so far in this lifetime.

My ode goes especially to you, Helena Roth, dearest embodied soul, for keeping your senses open, embracing me exactly the way I am, understand where I am coming from, & cheering me for all that I am not yet have become.

I am forever grateful that our paths crossed when I needed it the most & not to mention, the way our energies create a remarkable expansion in my psyche, as well, as yours.

It is as the earth quakes below our feet when our souls synchronise with one another.

I am quite certain that divine interventions introduced us in order for us to explore the luxury of being a human being & use it in our creative endeavours. Keep shining bright like a diamond. You are our torch of light in times of darkness & when in desperate need of solace & solemnity.