I don't think I'm anything special when you look at me. I'm really very shy and not the most masculine guy. And the fact that I'm gay doesn't help, especially in my work environment.

Mr. White, my boss, was a good-looking man in his forties. I've always been a little attracted to older men, and Mr. White was undeniably hot. He had hazel eyes, brown thinning hair, a goatee and a mustache. He was powerfully built and had a small belly.

Unfortunately, his personality was so repulsive that it ruined any attraction I might have felt for him. He was mean and homophobic, and he scared the hell out of me.